I havent posted here in awhile but I feel really really good about alot of things... I managed to repair what I believe could have turned into a fractured relationship had I left it as it were, Ive been back in kung fu since the end of march and recently I have started to play around with some routines for practice, my work situation has gone very well busy lots of overtime and I am currently planning my next vacation for Christmas with my family...
My motivation has been extremely up and down since my promotion to blue belt... Extremely inconsistent would be what I would describe it... Some days, I'd be in a great mindset all gung ho and ready to do everything and others its like I go completely flat, dont wanna do anything... Whereas from white to green I was flyin all over the place wanting to do everything and anything I could get my hands on, I miss those days kind of... Seems to have straightened out but I cant exactly pinpoint why its been so crappy for the last few years... I always have loved kung fu and I enjoy learning new stuff, playing around with stuff to make it better but for stretches I cant really explain what happened I guess I just flatlined... The good part obviously being its so close to fixed, I'm getting my routines down again, my attendance was my first priority to fix and i have done so 4 months and counting... Huge for me, prior to that, it was extremely erratic... A big thing for me is the realization and remembering that one component of having your instructors trust is that you have consistent attendance and that you practice what is being taught, so I'm getting everything on track for my own sake but also out of respect for them... I don't exactly want to waste my instructors time... My practice habits were not that great too, and I have a long ways to go with getting it super super consistent again but I think for the most part I've come around and realized what needs to be done... As always, its all in my hands...
Work has been super busy, I have had well over 200 hrs for the month of July... Going well, busy and lots of overtime worked... Little to no days off for the past 6 weeks=awesome...
The drama and personal stress has gone down considerably, I think I can equate that at least partially to getting back in kung fu consistently... Kung fu, the traing itself, is work in progress for me, probably always will be, but its very intriguing and I have always enjoyed it when I am in class... I get alot out of all the instructors who teach, and I enjoy pretty much everything... Kung fu has done alot for me and I'm not even in an instructor role of any kind yet... Relaxes me and lowers my stress level considerably, cant get any better than that!!! I look forward to classes now and all the unknowns instead of dreading them, I would say thats a huge step forward compared to where I was at... Stay tuned on this one, its to be continued... Cant overstate the value of practice tho, I'm kind of figuring it out right now... Alot easier to do in a positive mindset tho cant wait to keep going!!!
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