Things have slowed down considerably in terms of things to talk about... I named this weeks blog as such cuz its just that, all over the place...
Work is busy as it always is, I'm a supervisor at my job so it gets kinda crazy sometimes with the expectation and everything and trying to do the right thing and set the best example for the other people working... This position definitely isnt for everybody, we tend to take responsibility for everything that happens while we are there, whether its individually our fault or not... Sometimes I think thats unfair because although we are supervisors, we are also human and we make mistakes and I think that the people who actually make the mistakes should be held accountable for it... but I think for the most part, our bosses realize that... However, I do love the people and the work that has always been the case... Something that makes my workplace special is we actually care about each other, we are always talking about the new stuff going on in our personal lives and if somebody is sick or something bad happens we check up on each other, we are just like family almost... and we stay in touch if people quit we dont just never talk again, we are always texting and talking when we cross paths... I love that aspect I feel comforted knowing when I leave I won't just lose touch with everybody there... speaking of which it will be 6 and a half years for me at my job this summer, I'm pretty happy about that, always looks good on a resume...
I had mentioned before my personal life was a struggle for me, it still is in some ways, for some of you reading this you might know some specifics but I'm not going to go into detail except to say that I'm using my kung fu and some other things to try and de-stress... I look forward to going to kung fu specifically for that reason alot of days lately, it seems like as soon as I go there and see somebody, anybody from Silent River it could just be another blue belt or any of the instructors, it calms me down and I dont feel the stress... I can't lie, I did consider quitting back when i had my attendance issues-there were days where I wanted to drop everything and be like I'm done, not a word of a joke-and now I have the foresight to see what a mistake that would have been in so many ways... Silent River as I have already stated is a one of a kind place... Not too many things can calm me right down if I'm mad or overstressed especially, just the sight of some people from this place just chills me right out... That and I believe in finishing what I start, not quitting in the middle of doing something, it drives me nuts not to finish what i started and it was always in the back of my mind, I felt pretty guilty during that time I was out... I'm trying my best to reverse that mistake now and so far so good...
I'm just gonna end with some food-for thought kind of stuff, just some little tidbits to think about til next week...
Some people have said that Prince William giving Kate Middleton his late mother Princess Diana's engagement ring for their wedding was a curse and that Kate will suffer a similar fate to Diana-true or not?
Ashton Kutcher is replacing Charlie Sheen in his show Two and a Half Men. Is this a good move?
There are reports that cops made 1 to 1.5 TIMES their usual wage for working overtime in the G8/G20 Summits, is this fair?
What's really in a word? An article was posted titled Words We Don't Say, listing all the words news readers don't like or want to see, among those listed are utilize instead of use, backchannel me instead of reply, build out instead of expand, and due to the fact that instead of because... furthermore, annoying phrases readers listed included merge together, mother's worst nightmare, perfect storm, putting out fires and needless to say...Also noted was words really disliked ending in gate, centric, based and wise... Are words really THAT big of a deal?
Doctors are saying to stay away from energy drinks and to consume them in severely limited amounts... they are saying that they contain caffeine, and even vitamins and herbal extracts with side effects that can cause seizures, delusion, heart problems and kidney or liver damage if overconsumed in the worst cases... they of course recommend water as the safest thing to drink... despite this U.S. sales alone for non-alcoholic energy drinks are expected to hit 9 BILLION in 2011, young people accounting for half of it, so can we imagine what the worldwide rate would be?
And last but not least, CONGRATS to all my guys from Silent River who placed in the Tiger Challenge! Kudos and pats on the back all around! Until next week...
Monday, 30 May 2011
Monday, 16 May 2011
SPEECHLESS...
Checking in on a bit of a down note...
This weekend, a former classmate of mine passed away tragically, committing suicide at a party... so this is my topic for the week... I am speechless, I don't know what to say... Suicide is a very tough topic to address, there are so many variables obviously attached to it...Just the thought of it makes me sick, looking at his Facebook page, he's talking like everything's fine hours before he died and then BOOM he's gone... I'm not even that close to the guy and its really striking a chord, so can you imagine what his parents, his 4 brothers and his close friends and relatives must be feeling right now???
Guilt is a huge issue when somebody passes away through suicide, their loved ones are going to constantly wonder what more they could have done or maybe even resent themselves for having missed something, a red flag, a warning sign that he was in pain and needed some help... Closure in that regard is gonna take a world of time, I am fortunate enough not to have experienced suicide with any of my loved ones, although I did have 1 with an extended family member... and the news of Chad's untimely and unfortunate passing this weekend scares me... I can only try to imagine the amount of pain and state of mind he was in for him to make the decision to take his own life and how helpless those who were close to him and got left behind must feel right now... This is what scares me most if it were to happen to me, I don't ever wanna be left feeling like what I did wasn't good enough or worse yet, that i didnt do enough.... That type of stuff can haunt you for the rest of your life...
I guess when it comes down to it, this news has forced me to realize that this CAN happen to me and that I need to be as aware and engaged with other people as I can be at all times... I have to take care of my family, my friends and my loved ones, hold them tighter and realize life is too short, things like this can happen anytime anyplace anywhere to anybody even those that I love and care about... Scary thought but it's reality... If I found this out about anyone close to me I have no idea what I would do I'd be devastated, just thinking about it makes my stomach literally turn...
Is it a selfish act? I am a very strong believer that NOBODY has the right to judge anybody who is in enough pain that they believe suicide is the only way out unless they know exactly what and why the person is feeling the way they do... this takes the saying walk a mile in another's shoes to a whole new level... It makes me mad when I hear people say 'They should think about all the people they will leave behind', when you're in considerable pain as Chad apparently was, you dont think about that, you just think about yourself and what you're going through and how you're going to solve the problem or end the pain... I'm not advocating suicide at all in saying this, just pointing out that in a dire situation like that you can't expect somebody to be able to reason like that when they are in so much pain that they can't see another way out... The other thing everybody says is 'Why don't they talk to somebody?' Well, depending on what's going on, they could be afraid to say anything even to those they trust, that's not as easy to do as it sounds, particularly for young people... Being a young person myself, I know all about the 'everything's fine'/'it's all good' facade, we want others to see us in a positive light so we mask whatever problems we have to avoid being a burden to other people... Admitting weakness to many is a big no no... Selfish to some it may be, but I say it's not simply because its human nature to look after ourselves first before others and nobody knows what we really want or need except ourselves... and also most observations of suicide victims are made at least partially out of ignorance, rarely if ever do we know the full story of those who died... At any rate, any case of suicide is very tragic and unfortunate to say the least.
Chad was a former classmate of mine throughout junior high as well as high school we were in the same grad class... I remember him dating back to grade 6, he always had such a smile on his face, always having fun and full of positive energy... But we now know the poor guy was suffering in ways that we all can only imagine we lost a great guy WAY too soon... RIP Chad you're in good hands now...
This weekend, a former classmate of mine passed away tragically, committing suicide at a party... so this is my topic for the week... I am speechless, I don't know what to say... Suicide is a very tough topic to address, there are so many variables obviously attached to it...Just the thought of it makes me sick, looking at his Facebook page, he's talking like everything's fine hours before he died and then BOOM he's gone... I'm not even that close to the guy and its really striking a chord, so can you imagine what his parents, his 4 brothers and his close friends and relatives must be feeling right now???
Guilt is a huge issue when somebody passes away through suicide, their loved ones are going to constantly wonder what more they could have done or maybe even resent themselves for having missed something, a red flag, a warning sign that he was in pain and needed some help... Closure in that regard is gonna take a world of time, I am fortunate enough not to have experienced suicide with any of my loved ones, although I did have 1 with an extended family member... and the news of Chad's untimely and unfortunate passing this weekend scares me... I can only try to imagine the amount of pain and state of mind he was in for him to make the decision to take his own life and how helpless those who were close to him and got left behind must feel right now... This is what scares me most if it were to happen to me, I don't ever wanna be left feeling like what I did wasn't good enough or worse yet, that i didnt do enough.... That type of stuff can haunt you for the rest of your life...
I guess when it comes down to it, this news has forced me to realize that this CAN happen to me and that I need to be as aware and engaged with other people as I can be at all times... I have to take care of my family, my friends and my loved ones, hold them tighter and realize life is too short, things like this can happen anytime anyplace anywhere to anybody even those that I love and care about... Scary thought but it's reality... If I found this out about anyone close to me I have no idea what I would do I'd be devastated, just thinking about it makes my stomach literally turn...
Is it a selfish act? I am a very strong believer that NOBODY has the right to judge anybody who is in enough pain that they believe suicide is the only way out unless they know exactly what and why the person is feeling the way they do... this takes the saying walk a mile in another's shoes to a whole new level... It makes me mad when I hear people say 'They should think about all the people they will leave behind', when you're in considerable pain as Chad apparently was, you dont think about that, you just think about yourself and what you're going through and how you're going to solve the problem or end the pain... I'm not advocating suicide at all in saying this, just pointing out that in a dire situation like that you can't expect somebody to be able to reason like that when they are in so much pain that they can't see another way out... The other thing everybody says is 'Why don't they talk to somebody?' Well, depending on what's going on, they could be afraid to say anything even to those they trust, that's not as easy to do as it sounds, particularly for young people... Being a young person myself, I know all about the 'everything's fine'/'it's all good' facade, we want others to see us in a positive light so we mask whatever problems we have to avoid being a burden to other people... Admitting weakness to many is a big no no... Selfish to some it may be, but I say it's not simply because its human nature to look after ourselves first before others and nobody knows what we really want or need except ourselves... and also most observations of suicide victims are made at least partially out of ignorance, rarely if ever do we know the full story of those who died... At any rate, any case of suicide is very tragic and unfortunate to say the least.
Chad was a former classmate of mine throughout junior high as well as high school we were in the same grad class... I remember him dating back to grade 6, he always had such a smile on his face, always having fun and full of positive energy... But we now know the poor guy was suffering in ways that we all can only imagine we lost a great guy WAY too soon... RIP Chad you're in good hands now...
Saturday, 7 May 2011
Lots of Stuff Going On Out There
Well, alot of stuff has happened since my post last weekend...
Obviously, first up in terms of controversy was the death of Osama bin Laden... much publicized and much scrutinized obviously-he only was the mastermind behind one of the greatest tragedies in American history that killed over 3,000 people... I have mixed emotions about that, I'm happy that the bad karma came back to him for all that he did, but this plays into the whole war with war conflict resolution. You kill one of our people we'll get revenge and kill yours, what are we learning, if something goes wrong just to kill the offender I do not agree with that approach at all... I'm not rejoicing at what happened like so many are, Osama is only 1 person and I highly highly doubt that just cuz hes dead that terrorism will all of a sudden cease to exist... We live in a pretty messed up world as it is, the way they are acting its like they eradicated all threats period forever, a little utopic much... I actually think all thats gonna do is leave America open to MORE terrorism and attacks, isnt that what they were trying to eradicate in going after him? it makes me laugh, they seem to think that if they kill Osama then terrorism is dead altogether... And i kinda am in disbelief that it took them almost 10 yrs to actually find him, come on in this day and age really, thats an accomplishment how? Think about all those pakistani people he influenced in his time alive as leader of Al-Qaida, so now that hes dead theres all those people behind him, are they gonna go on a massive killing spree and kill them all too? Yeah thats gonna solve everything, all the problems that they are having are still gonna be there we are just gonna have a bunch of dead bodies to show for it... Apparently nobody has caught onto that yet!
And obviously we had election day for the voting... I'm neutral on this, I do believe that those who are eligible to vote and of age to do so should do so BUT I also think that people shouldnt necessarily vote just to say that they exercised their rights, doing so out of ignorance and blindly voting through hearsay or people they know or have connections to, I don't think thats right either, its like taking the cheap way out, copying someones homework just to say its done... I'm not advocating for indifference and voter apathy but if you're not politically inclined and you don't know what you're voting for, to me it does no good to vote then... granted it is our responsibility to educate ourselves about who and what we are voting for, but i think a huge reason why we have had problems with voting indifference and apathy is just that-people dont know enough about it so they figure its not worth doing or whatever and they don't vote. Indifference and apathy in voting is not good I agree, if we dont exercise our rights as a part of a democracy to have our say in the people who run the province and country when we have a chance to do so, then we might as well be communist and it would be the same thing if nobody would take the time to vote, but it remains pointless to vote for whoever seems good just for show... Hopefully the majority of people who voted did so out of knowledge and their own free will not ignorance and pressure to say that they did...
And obviously for all the mothers out there, Mother's Day is tomorrow! All you moms out there, know that you're all appreciated for who you all are and all that you do for us kids... On a personal note, my mom did a great job raising me, as a single mom to boot... Shout out to her for the job she did, the values she instilled in me as a child still stick with me to this day and I would like to think i'm a pretty decent person as a result of it... The most powerful role model of a child is the same gender parent, but moms are a big deal regardless thats why theres a special day dedicated to all of you out there... Mom I love you and wishing you and all the other mothers out there a Happy Mothers Day!
Obviously, first up in terms of controversy was the death of Osama bin Laden... much publicized and much scrutinized obviously-he only was the mastermind behind one of the greatest tragedies in American history that killed over 3,000 people... I have mixed emotions about that, I'm happy that the bad karma came back to him for all that he did, but this plays into the whole war with war conflict resolution. You kill one of our people we'll get revenge and kill yours, what are we learning, if something goes wrong just to kill the offender I do not agree with that approach at all... I'm not rejoicing at what happened like so many are, Osama is only 1 person and I highly highly doubt that just cuz hes dead that terrorism will all of a sudden cease to exist... We live in a pretty messed up world as it is, the way they are acting its like they eradicated all threats period forever, a little utopic much... I actually think all thats gonna do is leave America open to MORE terrorism and attacks, isnt that what they were trying to eradicate in going after him? it makes me laugh, they seem to think that if they kill Osama then terrorism is dead altogether... And i kinda am in disbelief that it took them almost 10 yrs to actually find him, come on in this day and age really, thats an accomplishment how? Think about all those pakistani people he influenced in his time alive as leader of Al-Qaida, so now that hes dead theres all those people behind him, are they gonna go on a massive killing spree and kill them all too? Yeah thats gonna solve everything, all the problems that they are having are still gonna be there we are just gonna have a bunch of dead bodies to show for it... Apparently nobody has caught onto that yet!
And obviously we had election day for the voting... I'm neutral on this, I do believe that those who are eligible to vote and of age to do so should do so BUT I also think that people shouldnt necessarily vote just to say that they exercised their rights, doing so out of ignorance and blindly voting through hearsay or people they know or have connections to, I don't think thats right either, its like taking the cheap way out, copying someones homework just to say its done... I'm not advocating for indifference and voter apathy but if you're not politically inclined and you don't know what you're voting for, to me it does no good to vote then... granted it is our responsibility to educate ourselves about who and what we are voting for, but i think a huge reason why we have had problems with voting indifference and apathy is just that-people dont know enough about it so they figure its not worth doing or whatever and they don't vote. Indifference and apathy in voting is not good I agree, if we dont exercise our rights as a part of a democracy to have our say in the people who run the province and country when we have a chance to do so, then we might as well be communist and it would be the same thing if nobody would take the time to vote, but it remains pointless to vote for whoever seems good just for show... Hopefully the majority of people who voted did so out of knowledge and their own free will not ignorance and pressure to say that they did...
And obviously for all the mothers out there, Mother's Day is tomorrow! All you moms out there, know that you're all appreciated for who you all are and all that you do for us kids... On a personal note, my mom did a great job raising me, as a single mom to boot... Shout out to her for the job she did, the values she instilled in me as a child still stick with me to this day and I would like to think i'm a pretty decent person as a result of it... The most powerful role model of a child is the same gender parent, but moms are a big deal regardless thats why theres a special day dedicated to all of you out there... Mom I love you and wishing you and all the other mothers out there a Happy Mothers Day!
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